Music is so, so powerful. You can see how much power it has over the violinist or pianist as they perform with their instrument. It’s almost like they are dancing. Just as it can play with our emotions, it can also heighten our senses. The first few chords of that certain, life altering song, can take you back to any previous place in time. You can feel the feelings as they just happened yesterday. The tenderness of your first kiss, the fear of the time you almost wrecked your car, the sadness as you watched someone disappear right in front of you. I can’t really think of anything else in my life that can do this. Some songs can dig up memories I haven’t thought about in years. Remembering so many things that I thought were forgotten. The heart lets them go but the memories are always there, locked away in our subconscious. The other night I got out of a soak in our bathtub where I held my own private concert. I had my “I Love that Song” playlist on and was trying to shuffle my music but for some reason Siri wanted me to listen to (and perform) Maroon 5’s “Sunday Morning” over and over again. It actually put me in a really great mood. When I perform, there is not only an attempt at singing but also an array of movements and “dances” that allow me to really feel what I am listening to and just super relax.
So why is it, when I could use this pick-me-up the most that I tend to shuffle to the most depressing songs in my library instead? Slow, sad songs that really amplify whatever it is that I am trying to forget. Downer songs. Just like a drug, you listening to them thinking that they will make you feel at peace, but instead they bring you down the twisting path into the deepest, darkest parts of your own mind. Yes, you start thinking about everyone that you have ever hurt. Ever loved. Lost. How your life is just passing you by. That you are tired of working for someone else’s dream. What does it all really mean? And what about the end? That’s what happened earlier when I listening to Kansas’ “Dust in the Wind”. All the sadness and fear started to startle my calm mind. But literally as soon as a more up beat song came on everything changed. I will never be able to completely forget the sad memories I have but instead I can turn around my way of thinking, reshuffle my music and try to focus more on the things that really matter.
Life is what is happening right now. What soundtrack do you want to add to it?